For You
For you.
The day of November 1st, 2010, My friends and I were all preparing for a party we were throwing, in honor of a girl’s birthday. That day, I never expected that I would meet a boy who I would soon call My First. A short while after the party had begun, I got a phone call from your best friend, asking if I would come to pick Him and You up. I am extremely thankful for that phone call. Little did I know, it was the phone call that would change my life.
We exchanged hello’s and smiles that night, up until I realized you had left. Your leaving put me in a state of confusion; I sat around a fire wondering if I would ever see you again. I hoped that I would. I went to bed that night, lying on a cold basement floor, thinking about you and what it would be like to be next to you in that moment. I fell asleep with you on my mind.
The next morning when I woke up, I didnt remember much. The night was only a fog, due to alcohol and pot. But none the less, I remembered you. How could I forget the blue eyes that stared me down as I approached you and your best friend in that dingy barn?
I spent the day talking about you with my friend, who told me a little bit about your past. She was shocked to hear that your past didn’t particularly bother me, and even more shocked to know that I took an interest in “someone like that.” In all honesty, you were a mystery; a bad boy. And all I wanted was to spend time with you. I wanted to spend my nights with you, laying in the grass, praying that morning wouldn’t come too quickly. I wanted to be held, not knowing that eventually, you would be holding me every night.
After we started seeing each other every day, and You finally got the nerve to kiss me, I knew I wanted you as more than just another guy. I was skeptical at first, given your past, but I looked beyond that and saw you as the beautiful, kind boy that I met. And I cant tell you how happy I am to call you mine.
I want nothing more than to prove to you that I can make you happy forever, and I want you to be my permanent fixture until I die. I want for you to realize all the possibilities we will face, and I want this to work more than anything. I have, and will continue to invest as much time and effort as possible for this to work out. There is no doubt in my mind that I am deeply, whole heartedly in love with you, and I hope you understand just how much because I clearly cannot put it into words.
Thank you for every thing. And I mean everything. At times I am blinded by your lack of concern, but I do realize that you care about me more than I do. And I appreciate everything you do for me, even if I sometimes come off as greedy and ungrateful. You’ve given me the greatest things in life: Strength, Love, KeSha, Safety, Flowers, Hugs and Kisses ( my favorite! ), and the ability to want to move forward with my life. And through time, I hope to gain more from my relationship with you. No matter where life takes us, it will always be US. You will never be left behind or forgotten. You will, until the end of time, be the holder of my heart.
I love you.
