January 2010
19 posts
“On my fifteenth birthday, I made a wish. I stood like a lone tree in a field, staring down at a carbs, calories, and fats rectangle. The glow from the 14.5 candles surrounded me, forming an awkward sunset in my kitchen. My “family”, otherwise known as my 3 best friends Blake, Lena and Maci, wedged me between themselves and the table and slapped a party hat on my head. Like an annoying...
“I grew up in one of those towns that you never really heard too much about. There was one gas station, one market, no fast food, an ice cream store, and a low-key diner. Old people over populated the area, but were barely out numbered by trees and fields. I didn’t live in a house, or a ranch, or a condo. I grew up in a [as nice as they can get] mobile home park. Before you go barking up the...
I don't love me. And that's why I understand why...
Im madly inlove with nutter butters. And no, i...
In all honesty, I am hurt because of what you did...
I often look in the mirror and evaluate myself. I consider it a good cleansing process in all honesty. Today, I had an internal discussion about how I should probably delete my myspace, face book, and any other social networking site I’m attached to. I’m sure I would feel a lot better if I did. I wouldn’t be so concerned about having feelings for people I hardly know, I wouldn’t have to put up...
While watching
Paper Heart, I realized how much I miss giving my love away.
Where are you, Love?
Watching movies in the bathtub almost makes me...
Today was
typical. especially for a sunday. i studied for finals and watched the secret life of bee’s and Juno. I don’t really know how i feel about today. it seems like my days are getting harder and harder to remember. it literally seems like i dont do anything anymore. why dont i do anything?
how am i supposed to be happy if everything is standing in the way? how am i supposed to be happy if...
Me: Are you glad that I’m not high, or are you glad that I’m happy? Him: I’m glad you’re nothing. Me: I’m glad you’re something. Him: I’m your everything. Me: And ‘im your everything that is nothing. Him: You’re whatever you want to be. Me: I want to be free. Him: Then so be it. Me: What do you want to be? Him: A difference in the universe. Me: I think you already are. Him: You really think that?...
These sirens
are driving me up the wall. it’s so hard to concentrate when the same tune is streaming through my ears.
I feel like i could complain all day.
Yeahp.
You know how when you’re really bummed, you sit in your room with nothing but sad music flowing in and out of your body? I used to think that wasn’t a way to heal. I used to think it was better to pretend you were okay. But now I’m not as sure as I used to be. I feel like I’m losing my grip on my mind, on my actions and on the world. I’m so easily pleased, and I’m so easily disheartened. I hate to...
Safe to say
i have some of the best friends.
Right now, my head is spinning faster than the...
This morning, at an hour so irrelevant, I met a person that I already knew. He took me to places beyond what I already have seen. We sat in his vehicle, at a flashing stop light, for 22 minutes exactly. He told me a story about a boy who felt the need to always impress and go above what was expected of him. He told me that the boy felt alone, and very misunderstood. Especially alone actually. Not...
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Today’s date, 01-02-2010, is a palindrome; it reads the same backwards and forwards. The last time that happened was August 31,1380.
Im sick of talking to people. I want to do with...